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Showing posts with label alcohol addiction. Show all posts
Showing posts with label alcohol addiction. Show all posts

Friday

Does Alcohol Fuel Gaming Addiction?

I have been pondering this question the last few days.  After looking back at my gaming, and alcohol addictions I think they fueled each other.  Why do I say that?

For a few months now I have really cut back on my beer drinking.  I will occasionally buy some now, but the six pack a day or more days are over.  I don't know why, but one day I just realized how much money I was wasting a month.

I now look back, and see that my desire to play games has also went down.  It seems no game can keep my interest for very long anymore. Most games don't even interest me now.   I no longer put gaming before sleep.  Was alcohol influencing me to stay up playing against my better judgement?

Was it the social aspect of drinking that made me enjoy socializing in game, and on vent?  Now that I am sober most of the time has it affected my desire to be social in games?

I feel the urge to still play games, but I just can't get any to stick these days.  Every game gets boring really fast now.  I have seemed to have lost the desire to want to improve games.

When I was playing Warhammer Online I was always thinking of ways to make the game better.  What I wanted to change.  I was never happy, but I still played the game hours, and hours every day.  These days I don't feel that anger any longer.  I no longer have the urge to hate on games.  I just stop playing instead.

I wonder if I started drinking heavily again if my gaming addiction would be in full force again?  

Monday

Five Days Without A Beer

One day at a time is working to stop drinking.  The urge is there every minute of every day that I am awake.  It only takes one small weakness, but so far I haven't given in to the temptation.  Every day I come so close to giving in, and buying a six pack.  I have to convince myself to walk past the beer, and buy an energy drink instead.

Even though it has only been five days without a beer it feels like a huge accomplishment.  It is the longest I have gone without beer in a very long time. 

I can't say I have noticed anything different in how I feel.  I just notice I have been sleeping more than I have slept in years.  I have been sleeping 10+ hours a night.  Is it boredom, or is it part of my body catching up on years of abuse?

I know quitting drinking is the best decision I have made in my life, but I know every day is going to be a struggle to not buy beer.  Hopefully it will get easier as time goes on. 


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