Beer has become part of my lifestyle. I have to drink beer no matter what I am doing. It seems more of a habit than me drinking to get a buzz. I don't think I even know what a buzz is any more. I have two phases of drinking. I feel like I need to drink more because I don't feel a buzz, and blacking out many hours after drinking to much thinking I couldn't get a buzz.
There is no happy medium. I go through a six pack of high alcohol 8.6%+ content microbrews, and usually have to go get another six pack to drink that extra one or two I think I need. I just don't really understand why I drink.
I rarely have hangovers so it probably makes it easier to drink every day. I just seem to make an excuse to drink. I could have a good day at work, a bad day at work, watching sports, team is winning, team is losing, or whatever. It is always a good time to drink beer.
Right now I am really, really craving a beer. Is it relaxing? Does it kill the pain? Why am I fighting the urge to drive to the store right now, and buy a six pack?
How much money do I waste every month on beer? Sadly I spend over $300+ a month on beer easy, and that is just beer at home. I always wonder where all my money goes, but when I sit down, and realize I spend $10 a day I soon realize where all my extra money is going.
I am going to try something new, and every day for the next month I am going to at least devote one post a day about my struggles. If you have been reading my blog the last few weeks than you know I am struggling actually with many different addictions. Luckily none of my addictions involve drugs.
