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Saturday

Struggling With Trichotillomania

I can't stop.  No matter how hard I try I do it.  I don't even know how it started.  I can't figure out any triggers except boredom.  It seems to be getting worse every day.  So what is Trichotillomania?  It is the urge to pull out your hair uncontrollably.

It is now to the point where it is very noticeable.  Both my eyebrows are now almost completely gone.  I have basically plucked them one by one over the last few months.  It is probably close to drug addicition where you may want to stop, but no matter how hard you try you can't kick the habit.

I am trying to look back, and see how it all started.  I know a coworker who talked about it about a year ago, and her inability to stop pulling even with anti depressant prescriptions.  I thought to myself how could someone pull out their hair.  I now see how it happens, and it is impossible to stop.

I am not sure how it started.  I used to be infatuated with my eyebrows, and pluck stray ones with tweezers.  It was like a once a week type ordeal, but it didn't seem like that big of a deal.  I also recently started plucking my gray hairs, but lost interest in it. 

My newest hair pulling has started with my arm hair.  I now find myself bored while sitting on break at work, or watching TV.  I end up pulling multiple hairs every break, or incident when it happens.  It is a horrible addiction. 

I am struggling with it every day, and I hope somehow magically I wake up some day, and no longer have the urge to pull out my hair.


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